Images from the Soul; the longing for, the endless searching, spanning multiple lifespans and ultimately finding and unbearably losing of my Eternal Beloved Twin Flame. And my adventures in Spirit there after.. True Love surpasses everything, even death...

uit 1996 tot 2022 (klik op de afbeelding om het werk groter te bekijken)
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Birth of the Twin Flame

1996

The birth of the Twin Flame; the splitting of the Eternal Soul into the male and female half as an reflection of God/Goddess as we're made in His/Her image. This splitting is the primal trauma.

Flower Child

1997

The lotus flower one of the most commonly used symbols throughout the history. It's the flower of life, a symbol of rebirth since it rises from murky darkness all the way up to the light and turns into a beautiful flower with pink, white or golden petals much like a human being born in the dark and turning into something complete and beautiful, the expansion of one’s soul and spiritual enlightenment.

Flower Power

1997

The female part of the Soul takes on a female body. Then as a child discovering the world, trying not to fall down into the darkness, but to stay dancing in the light. Her hair is tied in Celtic fashion. The orange dress stands for a strong life force. Her dragonfly wings represent transformation, expansion, self-realization, determination, and spiritual pursuits.

Flower Heart

1997

The male part of the Soul takes on a male body. My Other Half starts his journey in this lifetime, resting in his own heart, since he has no one around him to nurture him.

Amanita Muscaria

1997

I call out to my long lost Beloved Twin; 'Where are you, my love? I miss you, let me know where you are so I can find you.." I send out my love as a beacon, hoping he will hear me. The mushroom is an amanita muscaria and highly poisonous, so only shamans can use them safely to enter other dimensions. One bite will open portals, two bites will kill you. Wings are the symbol of lightness, spirituality, the possibility of flying and rising up to heaven. They're the expression of the aspiration of the soul towards ascending the human condition.

High Priestess of Isis

1998

Isis was worshiped as The Great Goddess of magic and fertility, the protector of the dead, and guardian of the Mysteries. A priestess is one who serves the Goddess. Today, this path, if truly and deeply followed, is more difficult than way back when because now we have to blaze our own trail. There's no longer specific training or a set of rules to follow. Whereas in mainstream religions there are established answers to the Great Questions, we must find our own answers. 

My Heart's Image

2007

Even as a little girl I know what my Twin Flame will look like; I have an image of him in my heart. His eyes are kind and heavenly blue, his hair is pure, soft, flowing gold, and his pupils hold the universe. His aura is powerful and enlightened.

Love's shining Light

2011

We finally meet on this earthly plane. My Beloved sees me from afar. Times slows down, everything and everyone starts to move in slow-motion, like it's under water. Suddenly a bright spotlight beams down. A brilliant beam of light appears and shines only on me. This is how he recognizes me.

Twin Flame Love

1999

We're finally reunited! It took a lifetime of searching, knowing the other one was out there, somewhere. My Eternal Beloved Twin Flame, we are One, there's no beginning, no end. We can never be parted again. I love you, allways, unconditionally, for ever.

Magical Mystery Woods

1996

We go on adventures with our friends in the magical woods in a moonlit night.

Robin Hood

2000

Like Robin Hood with his never missing bow, my Beloved protects me and keeps me safe from harm. I can relax for the first time in my life, knowing someone has my back.

Black Elk

2018

This is Black Elk, the holy man and healer of a Native American Tribe

King Arthur and Morgana

2007

Morgana shows the young Arthur that he'll be a King someday in his reflection in the water in the cauldran. A great king of high importance and that he needs to grow to be able to carry that heavy burden. The windowsil reads; 'Arthurus Rex Quondam Rexque Futuris', which is Latin for; Arthur, the once and future King.

Vea

1999

This beauty is named Vea. It means fairy in Israelian. The bindi means that her third eye is open. The golden harp has 20 strings and is a Druide harp of Healing; it unites Heaven and Earth with it's sweet sound.

Zoot

1999

This little gnome is named Zoot. The flute playing symbolises his magical power; his ability to awaken the soul. The flute is a symbol of the Divine Masculine, as a phallic shape. 

Ecstase

2001

We make passionate love, fly on wings of ecstase for hours. But our bodies are just laying on the floor next to each other, not even touching. This is lovemaking in the Soul.

The Dance of Life

2002

Everytime we're together we feel the presence of God. Just simply being in each other's company, looking into each other's eyes connects us to God's Heart.

Old Fear Rears it's Ugly Head

2001

Love brings up and pushes outwards everything that is NOT love. Because we're safe and secure in each others love, traumas, fears of the past rear their ugly head. Do we have the courage to face them together?

Harald Fairhair

2022

Harald Fairhair was a handsome Viking and the first king of Norway. When he was a young man, he fell in love with a princess named Ellisif. Getting rejected for not being important enough, Harald decided to make himself king of all of Norway to get her affection. He succeeded and became the first king to claim sovereignty over all Norway. Harald then married his love. He holds his Sword of Justice, wears a ruby ring, a symbol of monarchy and has a tattoo of a medieval rune on his cheek. It represents the letter H. 

Eye of the Storm

1997

Together we weather the storms. We hold on to each other for dear life to make it trough our worst traumas as we finally may share and relive our deepest, darkest secrets. 

Excalibur

2007

The female gives the Sword of Truth to be wielded by a just man. The sword is a symbol of the intellect, symbolising positive and discerning thoughts. 

Love Flowering

2000

My body opens like the fragile petals of a flower under his warm, inviting love, shining on me like the golden sun. I'm safe in his arms, surrounded by his gentle love. I'm safe in his heart. The red surrounding stands for passion and the orange flower for life force which now blooms.

Will You Be My Wife?

2004

"My Beloved, I wish to be with you for ever. Will you be my wife, so we can discover and love eachother eternally?" "Yes!" The sword stands for his masculinity which he offers me freely and openly, without holding anything back. The headstones of the graveyard in the back represent our victory over traumas and fears from the past.

Hiri and Jana

1999

We laugh, play, tease each other and have endless fun together. His wit makes me laugh so much everyday that my cheeks hurt. I'm a willing audience and this makes him happy. He loves to be loved, and I love to love him. And vice versa. We're in Love, just as much as the day we met. Maybe even more if that's possible. Love flows freely from one to the other and back, endlessly.

Wizard of the Light

2001

My Beloved has true magical powers. Our love gives him the trust and foundation to be his ultimate Divine Self. One enchanted night he moves his hands in geometric shapes and blue light bursts out of his hand. I can see it and am blown away in awe..

Lost... Or not?

2003

A forest is the place where vegetable life thrives, free from any human cultivation. And since its foliage obscures the light of the sun, it's regarded as not the sun’s power but a symbol of the earth. In Druid mythology, the forest was given to the sun in marriage. Here the newlyweds are lost in the forest and come upon a signpost which only reads gibberish like; here, there, back again, and heaven is pointing downwards. Is heaven here? And can you even be lost when what you truly desire is right there, holding your hand; your beloved...
The forest is also a mysterious place, in fairy tales they're usually inhabited by mysterious and unearthly creatures. Here two forest gnomes are visibly wondering what these humans are doing in their habitat.

What God hath joined together let no man put asunder

2002

When the male and female come together the link with God is made. We marry for God/Goddess and men's eyes. It's the marriage of the heart, of the soul. We choose each other, unconditionally, for ever and ever.

Yggdrasil

2002

My Beloved falls ill, it's fatal. He's in unbearable pain and I feel helpless, I can't take this pain away. His pain is too much to bear alone, so I gave it to Yggdrasil. This is the Tree of Life.

When the Light Calls

2007

When the Light calls, we all have to answer and go back Home. Even the animals and our beloved pets must heed the call.

Le morte d'Harald

1997

My Beloved's heart beats for the very last time. He takes his last breath. He dies in my arms. I see his spirit rise up, out of the top of his head, it goes up, up, up like a wisp of smoke. He floats up towards Heaven.

R.I.P.

1996

The battle is done, the war is over.  Rest in Peace, my Love. From now on my life is cold, forever shrouded in darkness. I die with you.

Bridge

1999

My Beloved crosses the bridge to Heaven; there is no turning back. Go, my Love, be free, but please, take me with you..? Please, don't leave me behind.. I don't want to be here, all alone.. without you

Help me, for I'm tumbling into Emptiness

1996

I am angry at my heart, it just stupidly keeps on beating, even though it's broken and I'm torn in half. I wish it would just stop. The world makes no sense anymore; why does it keep on turning? It should come to a screeching halt, no more sunsrises, no more sunsets, everything must die. The world must end because mine doesn't make sense anymore.

Mermaid's Longing

2004

I look back at our life together, at our True Love, and I feel lonely and out of place.  I don't belong here on earth anymore; I had a little peek of heaven and I long to be there with him.

Desert of Destitute

1996

My Love, where are you? I can't find you. I can't hear you. Are you safe? Are you with God? I can't find God anymore either. I only find statues of Him in this world, but they feel empty, like they're mere cold, empty statues, devoid of life, devoid of love, devoid of light.

Purple clouds

2000

Purple clouds against a blackened sky. Frightening close they look at me, they look like you. Do you remember who I am? I can't see you anymore and it's killing me. The black and white tiles represent the male and female energies.

Serena

2004

I am here. Where are you? Why aren't you here with me? I'm so cold and lonely, I don't belong here.. I keep frantically searching for my Beloved, but I can't find him. The pain is just to great, the void is too large, I can't bear it..

My God, why hast Thou forsaken me?

2003

I collapse and weep for hours on end. It is all too much, too unbearable. But crying doesn't make me feel better, it is an endless river of solitude. I cry until I can cry no more. I scream to God; "God! Help me, please! Where are You? Did you abandon me as well? Where are You? I need You now!"

The Alpha and The Omega

2004

Through my closed eyes I see a bright, white light start to hine.  I open my eyes to see a brilliant light filling up the room. I hear a booming voice say; "My Child, I am the Alpha and the Omega. I am here, with you." "Oh my God, You have not abondoned me, as I had feared, thank you! I need You so much.." I feel myself gently get picked up by two giant hands. I feel safe, loved and held, cradled like a little baby. My heart stills.

Angel Wings

2008

Finally, I feel God. I feel being cradled and protected in His Hands. Healing begins, very slowly, in babysteps. I'm not abandoned, left behind in the dark as I thought; that was just my fear. I'm still loved, brokenhearted, crying a river and all. Wings are the symbol of lightness, spirituality, the possibility of flying and rising up to heaven as a winged spirit. They're the expression of the aspiration of the soul towards ascending the human condition.In Hinduism wings are the expression of the freedom to leave earthly things behind as a result of contemplation and to reach Paradise. In Christianity, wings are associated with the light of the Sun of Justice that illuminates the Intelligence of the Just. 

Breaking Through The Veil

2004

My Beloved really visits me. He breaks throught the veil of death. Our True Love is so strong it unites us, even now. Almost we touch, almost... I can see him, hear him, talk with him, feel his love, but I can no longer touch him physically. The wild ocean and the stormy clouds stand for our strong, overpowering emotions.

Camelot

2007

Camelot is a castle and court associated with the legendary King Arthur. Camelot first appeared in 12th-century French romances and since the Lancelot and the Holy Grail quests came to be described as the fantastic capital of Arthur's realm and a symbol of the Arthurian world.

Guardian Angel

2007

In meditation I find my Beloved Twin Flame right here, standing behind me, protecting me. He's become my Guardian Angel, he never left me, not really. Although his physical body died, his spirit is still with me, loving me eternally. The fairy ring is a naturally occurring ring of mushrooms and a sure sign of otherworldly presences. They can be either dangerous or bring good fortune as they're mythical mushroom portals of the supernatural.  In Native American culture, the birch tree stands for guidance and protection. In Celtic mythology, the birch tree is regarded as one of the most sacred trees, symbolizing new beginnings. The birch tree can adapt to any environment and grow in harsh conditions, that's why it’s a symbol of adaptability. In Slavic culture, the birch tree represents femininity, happiness and blessings for women.

Summerland

2006

In pagan traditions, it's believed that the dead cross over into a beautiful place called the Summerland. This realm is neither in heaven nor the underworld. It's not good, it's not bad, it's just a place we go to after death where there's no more pain or suffering.  It's a non-physical reality much less dense than ours, a land of eternal summer, with grassy fields and sweet flowing rivers, 

Stargate

2010

Lita la Chat is the Princess of the Cat People. Here on earth they show themselves as cats. Only the sensitive people among us can see their wings, while on their homeplanet they're people with feline features. The light behind her is a Stargate, a doorway of the universe. Stargate’s and portals are opening up more and more as humanity is waking up. We've entered the Age of Aquarius. The Divine feminine is now coming to the forefront meaning a more compassionate world, ending the patriarchal age. A Stargate, an otherworldly portal to outside realms, can be hidden within Earth’s magnetic fields, waiting to transport the enlightened traveler to a place beyond current time limitations, or instantly teleport human beings from one place to the other. 

Shiva

2009

Shiva 'The Auspicious One' also known as Mahadeva. 'The Great God' or Hara, is the Supreme Being, the Supreme Lord who creates, protects and transforms the universe. Shiva has many aspects, benevolent as well as fearsome. In benevolent aspects, he's an omniscient Yogi who lives an ascetic life on Mount Kailash, as well as a householder with his wife Parvati and his three children, Ganesha, Kartikeya and Ashokasundari. In his fierce aspects, he's slaying demons. Shiva is regarded as the patron god of yoga, meditation and the arts. The iconographical attributes of Shiva are the serpent around his neck, the adorning crescent moon, the holy river Ganga flowing from his hair, the third eye on his forehead (the eye that burns everything to ashes when opened), and the trident as his weapon. He's worshipped in the abstract form of lingam.

You know who I am

2015

'Why am I still here, all alone? I miss you so much it hurts.' 'Beloved, here I am. You are not alone, I am here, I love you, now and forever..'

Be guided by the Spirit of the Plains

2008

I am Aurora; I am Beloved. I connect Heaven and Earth, with my head in the clouds and my feet firmly on the ground I connect the two dimensions. In pre-Columbian cultures, wings are associated with the Sun, adopting the form of an eagle in Mexico. These solar birds are the symbol of the sky up to where they can rise thanks to their powerful wings. These birds represents regeneration.

Heroic Animal Activist Warrior

2012

This painting honours all animal activists. The anguished expression on his face is because every animal activist and rescuer sees and feels the pain of tortured and slaughtered animals. This hurts us to our core. We're vegan to stop the violence. Veganism is the practice of abstaining from the use of any animal products—particularly in our diet—and an associated philosophy that rejects the commodity status of animals.  The symbols above his head are the Sea Shepherd flag, which is an old Pirate's flag somewhat altered. And his belt buckle is two dolphins swimming around each other in a ying-yang symbol showing he protects whales and dolphins.     Dit is een SeaShepherd Held. Hij beschermt de walvissen en dolfijnen. De symbolen boven zijn hoofd zijn hun vlag, een Piratenvlag met wat aanpassingen. Hij ziet erg gepijnigd uit omdat hij de pijn voelt van de geslachtte walvissen en dolfijnen. Deze pijn dringt door tot in zijn kern.  

Isis and Horus

2005

Goddess Isis was the Mother Goddess, wife of Osiris and the mother of Horus..For the ancient Egyptians the image of the goddess Isis holdng her son Horus was the most beloved pose and a powerful symbol of rebirth. Isis was most valued in her role as life-giver, fertility bringer, healer, protector and magician. In her name justice was brought to ancient Egypt. Boven haar hoofd is de zonneschijf. Dit iconische beeld werd later overgenomen en getransformeerd in Moeder Maria en de baby Jezus.

Hara

2019

The Lunar High Priestess and her cat Hara, her familiar. Paganism is present in the three lunar cycles on her crown, twice. Ancient Egypt is present in her necklace with the scarab, that after crawling on the ground, spreads its wings at the end of its life to rise in the sky up to the sun, jewel and the hiergoglyphs on the pillar. Christianity is present in the descending white dove on her crown representing The Holy Spirit.

Quantum Matrix

2008

This is the beginning and the end in neverending cycles. Every orb is a Twin Flame consisiting of the male and female energy. They're all Twin Flames re-united in everlasting rapture. The orbs go on in every direction, endlessly, in mathematical precision. Everything is created from light and information and everything and everyone is interconnected through this morfogenetic field. 

Aurora

1997

Aurora is the Goddess of the Dawn, the personification of the first light of day. She was celebrated in many different ancient cultures. Aurora renews herself every morning and flies across the sky announcing the morning's arrival by leaving a trail of orange, red, and yellow light.  Aurora was cursed by Aphrodite to always be in love. Aurora made one tragic mistake in her life. Her love for the mortal Tithonus was so great she asked Zeus to make him immortal. Zeus agreed, but since Aurora had neglected to ask for his eternal youth, Tithonus ended up aging eternally.